How I feel .

This is a collection of how I feel about my work and things in general... Absolutely Fearless! Is it good to be absolutely fearless in the moment , fearless to the extent of not realizing what the consequences can be.. or being so fed up that you...

I can't run !

The last year has been a back seat for me. I've thought a lot about the year before. I've lost inhibition and I've stared feeling my feelings again. I am at war with myself regarding my would be career and I don't know what i want to do. For the next...

Hey! Have I been forgotten ?

I have been thinking about what i have been doing with my life ,a great deal ; and it turns out i have'nt been doing much. I have cut out all people who would offer me any strand of negativity, atleast temporarily ; i bet most of them won't bother to...

A Thousand Years ...

  And since she takes hours to finish her food or has never produced results which were quality for the money they invested in her ... they will never be proud of her ...   Nothing she has ever done has made them proud ..    No,...

Last Battle Lost

Failed. I'm officially a failure now. That's it. I don't feel any type of way. I'm too tired to feel anything . I'm too tired to want to tell people. I'm too tired. I feel like going to sleep and never waking up again .... atleast for a long time ......

I can .... can I ?

I feel a lot of types of ways ... not vulnerable ... I feel strong ... but it doesn't feel good ..I feel strong ... but its like ... I can't feel my feelings anymore .   I desperately need a new start .. Carrying a lot of excess baggage ... from...

Remember ....

Hello people .. To all my friends here .. I'm really sorry for having disappeared just like that ... I have my exams on for the next two months ... and if i do tolerably well .. I go to college .. if i don't i will have to do it over .. another year...

Angry Confessions :/

So ....  At present I am sullen with deep guilt ... and kind of irritated too ...   Sometimes anger can take over the best of our wits  .... and we can end up really hurting people that we love so dearly and those amazing people tend to forgive...

I Told You !!!!!

So my dreams did mean something !!! Yes they did !!!!    One very important thing that i realize ... its like that feeling ... for example when you've burnt your hand before and then you almost touch something hot again .....

Why Dreams ??? Why ???

I had just convinced myself that I have moved on from certain things (and that I have ) ...  but guess what ... when I'm finally trying to get back up .... I have this weirdly perfect dream of something I would love so much but can so not be true......

Realizations ..... You're Amazing ...

If you've heard (rather read) any of my recent rants regarding how awful i feel ... then the last one was probably the last one ... i'm going to make a forced concious effort to stop behaving like that .. i'm not fine ... i agree .. i'm not going to...

When you feel completely miserable ....

I am as fed up of my complaining and whining as you are ... but at present i am not able to figure out what is leading to what in my life ....   I used to be so good at my job ... But now i feel really depressed with things ( i really don't want...

What The Hell Am I Doing !!!

So... lets get some things clear real quick !  What do i feel about things at present ? Why am i in the complete mess that i am in ? The reason is really simple and i know it. (hypocrisy ... look at me call it "simple" .. i meant its simple for me...

Day 14

Its been like forever since I last wrote and I'm like sleeping through the day .. instead of being insomniac ... so once again I don't feel like waking up to anything .. and once again I'm going back to old things .. its funny that I should say that...

Day 7

Today was as much fun as yesterday ... I woke up  and with bullered eyes saw the balloons we bought yesterday  tied to the corner of my bed .. half their size now  ...    In the morning first thing ... I tried to complete some of my work ... I...

Day 6

I couldn't write yesterday ... a very busy day ... I couldn't sleep at all ... for the first time ... "insomniac having fun " hehe ....  Actually this is because I had to go to a lot of places .. Visit a lot of people .. and catch up with my work...

Day 5

So ... This was much better than I expected .... we had a blast today ... we went around places .. pure family time ...    Good food and people I love ... two things that can make my day ...  We remembered old times ... when we...

Day 4

I'm feeling much better today ... gathering myself up .... today was not so good as far as work is considered ... but I'll get back to it ... I know ...   Another positive start and I hope everything will be fine ....   And tomorrow...

Day 3

Umm .... my health keeps becoming worse .... I had important stuff to do today ... but had to miss it ... cause i'm down with fever ... Headache ... cold .... a weather change thing i guess ...    But i realize one thing today .. to be able to...

Day 2 : How it ended

So as decided I tried my best .... to get going with work ... and I did quite well ..    And for other things... couldn't think much ... my head is still hurting bad !!!! And I'm very slow amd there's still a lot to get done ...    And !!!...

Day 2

Aaaaaah !  Now every single time I try to do something about things  ...  something has to go wrong .... my head is hurting .... feverish ... and above all I feel sick ... you know that feeling ... sick to the stomach... I get that now ...   ...

Day 1

Didn't get a good night's sleep yesterday .. so the morning was lousy and I woke up late ....    Afternoon was good ... and I'm slow ... very slow .. I see that ... but let's see how it goes ...    So basically work was moderately good ......

Lets do this !!!!!

Okay !!!! I've been working on somethings to fix them and i still don't know how far i'm succeeding .. but i'm trying for sure !! So now i find myself in a better situation than earlier ... htet is as far as wwork is considered ... the other things.....